This Can't Be Happening to Me My kids suffered, as well as me. I was hauling them out of bed at 4 am to rush to emerg becasue I hadn't voided in hours and I was in extreme pain, my school work suffered, my job suffered. I was spending way too much money on medication to try and keep my body functioning while at the same time working less and less because I was sick. My urologistis ran test after test to try to figure out what was happening to me, only to come up blank every time. I was starting to think... it was all in my head. I started to rest even more, to avoid friends and dates and munches and parties. I stopped running the kids to little league, and baseball and basketball and karate. The kids would say "mom is doing a crash and burn" for I would come home at 4 and sleep till 8 am the next day. I was a horrible mother and I knew it. Derek and Jess both began to act out and I blamed myself but being alone in the Toronto area there was no one to turn to. I did the best I could and blamed myself even more. We went on, and did our best trying to hold our little family together. Until finally the urologist had an answer, I was called to his office to hear the verdict....